Oh My Dad!!!!!

Time passes and my ability to deal with problems change, i won't say much, but slightly better, and communication with my dad improve. Although my grandma dementia is not getting any better but it has already become a routine so more or less use to it, unless when i woke up at the wrong side of my bed.

Recently, i felt that my dad is not giving me the amount of understanding that i gave to him... practically, he is not sensible...!!! I bought a iPad recently but i felt that he needed it so i promised to give it to him once I've bought a iPad 2. My iPad 2 came 1 month ago so i passed to him the iPad. I bought casing, Batteries for him, and he is happy. I've been thinking... I've done what I can do already but why is MY own situation not getting any better.

One of the incident took place like this. I've booked tickets for movie on a wednesday with my friends, i told him beforehand on Monday and even repeatly remind him on Tuesday that I'm going for movie on Wednesday and he promised to come home early, but when the day arrives, he came home late at night. Which makes me think that he did it on purpose and there goes the $30. I never even bother to ask him for it.

Second thing is, whenever he wakes up early in the morning and find that he is late for work, he will keep nagging nagging nagging to my grandma about me. Like i didn't do the housework, me getting lazier and lazier, and also keeps on going out at night... and everytime he did that I'm inside my room listening while pretending to sleep... thats what he didnt know.
It's so unfair..!!!

I don't deserve this... everytime he wants to go out with his GF, i would be considerate enough to even volunteer to stay at home. he didnt even spare a thought for me.... he broke his promises to me too many times...
I went out at night just to take a break from all the stress and going out at night is the only time that i'll feel safe to really go out and take a breather cuz he's home taking care of my grandma. FYI i dun leave home when there's noone at home to look after my granny..

I CLEARLY DUN DESERVE ALL THESE SHIT!!!!!!!